Like the eye which sees everything in front of it and never sees itself, faith is occupied with the Object upon which it rests and pays no attention to itself at all. While we are looking at God, we do not see ourselves—blessed riddance. The man who has struggled to purify himself and has had nothing but repeated failures will experience real relief when he stops tinkering with his soul and looks away to the perfect One.  -A.W. Tozer

Faith in our faith is about as useless as rubber lips on a woodpecker.

Early on during what would eventually become a failed marriage with the wife of my dreams, both her and I together encountered some real serious relationship issues—none of which many young couples don’t end up struggling with.  Problem was, I was a pastor and I am proud.  So, I thought it better to ignore our problems.  Over time, our marriage suffered as both my young bride and I made compromises that the marriage couldn’t afford in the grand total of things.  Eventually, we separated.  And then surprisingly, somehow, we reconciled two months later as both of us made stellar attempts to forgive and leave the past behind.  But even our most ardent and combined efforts proved insufficient and our union of fifteen years completely dissolved not too much later.

Looking back, I realize now that neither of us had the kind of faith in God (instead of in ourselves) that it would take to repair a broken marriage.  Both of us placed a lot of confidence within ourselves and eachother to do what was going to be painfully necessary to see a marriage so torn apart get the healing it so desperately needed.  An indicator that stood out like a sore thumb that I should have easily recognized  was how quick I was to pat myself on the back for the small gains I’d made on the long road back to what we had hoped would be an even stronger and more transparent intimacy.

7-8 A holy man showed up and said, “No, O King—don’t let those northern Israelite soldiers into your army; God is not on their side, nor with any of the Ephraimites. Instead, you go by yourself and be strong. God and God only has the power to help or hurt your cause.”   -2 Chronicles 25:7-8, The Message Bible

There are things in our lives that we need to learn to trust God for, namely—everything.  And when we don’t, we learn the hard way.  It’s better to go some places alone if that is what it takes to trust God instead of our faith.  

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